That is the big question. I don’t know what to write, but I know I’m ready to abandon the crutches and this bulky Velcro strapped splint on my leg (<–this is a metaphor for writing).
I’ll say it here, because only those who actually give a shit about me outside of ff, will read my blog: I’ve become disillusioned with fanfic; so much so that I don’t know if I’ll even be able to finish the few WIPs I still bother to read. I won’t go on and on about the specifics. I don’t like to waste words.
I will probably write fiction.
It may or may not be funny.
I will use the word “cunt” whenever I feel like it.
There will be awkward and realistic sex.
I will write from a place of emotional honesty and realism.
No protagonist will have any incarnation of red hair (until I’m thoroughly RPatz purged)
While I’m at it, I will avoid like bubonic plague any reference to Twi-inspired character names, events and locations.
There may be vampires, but they will never sparkle, and they will always be evil. Just as the great sky-bully intended.
jenjiveg 
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way, although I can’t say I don’t agree. I absolutely love your writing. I hope you continue with your WIP’s but I’m more concerned about you. If you need an ear to listen for venting I’m here. Email mamadog93@yahoo.com if you want to. Hope to hear from you soon, in one fashion or another. <3
Thanks so much for your kind words, Joy. I honestly hope to finish IT…if for no other reason than it will drive me nuts to leave it undone.
No concern for me is necessary. I’m absolutely great (fanfic notwithstanding, lol).
Does that mean you won’t be finishing IT? I hope that’s not the case, but it seems like it might be. Even if you decide to finish it as regular fiction, please let me know, Jen. I don’t know what led you to your dislike of all things fanfic or Twific, but whatever it is/was, please know that I think you are amazingly talented and I hope you know that there are many others who feel this same way.
Please let me know if there is anything that I can do to help you regain some confidence in the medium. I would really love to at least see IT completed, but also enjoy your writing in general. And your wit. I miss that!
Thanks for all that you’ve done!
xo
Nan
And I forgot to add that I’m so sorry to hear about your leg. Was it an injury? Surgery? Infection? You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
Nan
Honestly, I understand your feeling of waning interest in Twific. Add that to my confusion and repulsion as to why certain stories that really aren’t very well written seem to get so much attention and I really don’t like this fandom very much some days. I stay for the few excellently written stories and a couple of wonderful friends that I’ve made.
That being said, I truly love “Inappropriate Touching”. I think it’s amazing and your characters/storyline are so different from anything else that I’ve read before. Very few authors -fanfic writers from the several fandoms that I’ve been invovled in or those published- have your ability to mesh comedy, drama and sexual situations. Your words are real but beautiful.
I hope that you choose to share IT’s characters journey to health and happiness with us. They are characters that feel real enough to me that I will always wonder how things would have turned out with them. However, if you should choose not to finish, I wish you the best in all of your endeavors, writing included.
Thank you for sharing what you have with us. It was a pleasure to read what you have given to us. :)
AD,
In re your confusion and repulsion: some have the time and inclination to court readership and parasocial relationships, and to write and market their stories to reach the largest common denominator. It’s normal and expected behavior for paid writers, so I’d say it’s good practice for “the real world of writing.” I’m not judging at all the choice to do so. It is a wise thing to do if those are your aspirations.
LOL…I don’t know what my aspirations are, but I’m OK with being an underachiever. If it means that my fic reaches a smaller audience, I’m totally OK with that. If it means I never get paid, I’m OK with that, too. As I’ve said countless times: I write for me. If you happen to find it amusing or entertaining, bully for you.
My intention is to finish IT. Beyond that, I cannot say.
Thanks again for your very kind words, and for your substantive comments.